I feel like I'm 14

I can't even begin to describe what a strange, bizarre and even terrible turn of events that has followed over the past month. I will spare all of you the details as most of you already know them but to summarize it all, our family has experienced a tragic loss that cannot be quantified and then the threat of another. And yet, my heart is full. I have never felt closer to my family and friends. Today I wear a smile that feels unfamiliar to me. The world almost seems brighter and filled with even more potential. I am not saying that I don't still feel the dark rain cloud of sorrow in the back of head at all times but I've come to appreciate that feeling at the same time. It is my brother, and he is with me. I know that slowly the anguish and hurt will soften and darkness will continue to subside but his memory never will.
Anyways, I wanted to offer a heart felt thanks to all of you. There have literally countless calls, emails, visits and messages from so many of you. Its been awe inspiring. And as I said, today I feel like I'm 14... there is almost a giddiness about me... I don't know how long it will last but I'll treasure it while its here.